DID YOU LOVE ME REALLY?

1. DID YOU LOVE ME REALLY?

the arithmetic of life was complicated
numerous times calculation is failed,
i tried to keep the blooming valley in
the sphere of mind s eye, loop holes
of adoration let it run away in autumn,

the equation of heart did not become
reciprocal, emotions remained unsolved ,
before the dawn horizon changed colors
now it looks oily grey, spotted by reddish
spray, the missing blues raised questions,

mirror said mercury has limited periods,
the beautiful urn is poured out the liquid
laying on the table as discarded object,
few droplets of perfume on the way to
say curtailed history, on the arena i wept
vigorously alone, the blank corridor had
no more words to complete the saga of
life, resonance were weak died on the
path, in the necropolis, the tall tree again
thrived with graceful violet pink blossom,

though spring is far away, here i sat down
isolated on the broken bench, cathedral bell
still ringing somewhere in the lower valleys,
mysterious calls of adoration did not find
me, i waited for you whole the life in search of
a short sentence, that did you love me really!

2. THE DIARY OF LIFE

the diary of life has some wet pages
please go through little by little to heart,
just now i learn to smile , let some more
passion flowers to be bloomed, my
paralyzed feelings desire to walk as
you hugged with internal affections,

in this quixotic twilight i am prepared
to share whatever you want, heart
soul, corporal pleasure, i have been
nominated rest of life in your tenure,
from here we have to go the farthest
destination of love, a relationship of
immortality, the moment is delighted,

the millions red roses are scattered on
the surface of submission everlasting,
look the western sky, love is splashed
colored the blue canvas, tonight is pro-
vided the dreamy bed for us, we have
to create the beautiful planet in our
body and soul, wind of Eden is scented
our body, spirit, touch me in a way
that my persona to be altered like a
condensed clouds of the century old,

keep a consistently flame burning in your
body, heart, soul, in this rare precious
moment, the love desires to break the limits
embrace me with thunderous way
i want to melt down whole the masculinity.
---SHANTANU SANYAL

THE BLUE MOON

in the dazzling miasma of winter end
far away in the rain forest our love is
grown as bluish-purple wild flower,
near the gigantic flow of the Amazon,
we have written the love script on the
flow, twilights filled the passion mean-
while, macaw feathers had covered
our kisses, hanging creepers bearing
tiny bloom, hidden our body and soul,
we lost our path in the dense forest
the boat is washed away by the tidal
waves, the blue moon is emerged in
above the delta end of Atlantic Ocean,
the divine rays lifted us, we flown
through the clouds of magical planet
embracing to each other in way
we have been reached to seventh sky,
from here we could see the earth
just like a giant colorful bubble, the
river looks like a thin line of origin,
in a mystical night we crossed over the
decade long beautiful life, in these
moments we forgot all the miseries, we
have been created the rarest painting.
---- SHANTANU SANYAL

--Painting by -JONE BINZONELLI
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SOME MOMENTS

in the marigold genesis of sky
the sun is squirmy to rise, flora
and fauna have curiosity to alter
their drowsiness, i am waiting
for you,near the mist inhaling
lagoon, in the edge, abandoned
broken wooden boat,half sank
looking just like my heart, laced
amid aquatic pink, white lilies,
weeds, shadow of shrubberies,
flourishing into the olive green
stable flow, poetries are emerged
after listening your footsteps,
silently your fingers touched the
back, the pleasures of heart skids
beautifully in to the water and
dreams began floating on surface,
fragrance moments reminded
the flowers were eager to bloom
since long time,as they waited for us,
after meeting with you i gone astray,
its evening or dawn, i do not know!

-- SHANTANU SANYAL  

TUBER ROSES

Let search some novelty in the life
abundance terrains are untouched,
grow some emotion to discover the
beauty of nature, the esplanade of
life is incomplete, we did not yet -
reached to final stroke to make
the dream live, every moment has
its own story, how to convert them
into the realism, the strange colors
of twilight says me, life is beautiful
embrace the night just in your arms,
dip the brush into the moonlight
to make the shades, dilute agonies,
tuber roses had provided the aroma
just fill the unfinished sketches inner
the heart, let give some space in the
life for some one, who loves you -
so much --------

- SHANTANU SANYAL

IN THE DEPTH OF EYES

just above the meeting point of
two oceans, towering tidal waves
falling down on each other s
persona, starling imagination here
said, let the poetries of colors
to be emerged from this friction,
our affection is born somewhere
among the thunderous clouds
in the torrential rain of monsoon,
the coast fizzed with numerous
dreams as we walked bare feet
on the sand left the sweet memories,
tidal waves touched our body, soul
foot prints fossilized on the edge
as an immortal cenotaph eternal,
embracing your delicate neckline
i felt the pleasure of paradise, in
that rare moment we had been
traveled on the infinite journey,
they pursued various destinations
to get peace, adoration, bliss
name, fame and divinity, i do
know, the desire unlimited,
our planet was originated in
in each other s depth of eyes,
--- SHANTANU SANYAL

FIRE FLOWERS

i concealed the compulsion of life
in such way that they think i have
been crossed the sensation of pain,
 indeed, i made the emotion after
loving you just like primal rock of
stiff mountains, the staunch winds
numerous times changed the blow,
belligerent cyclones do not know the
compromise but sometimes it has to
accept the beautiful defeat in the
love, in the depth of stony cracks
i deposited the tear droplets of night
the multi hued cactus bloomed on the
arid chest, you have no way to escape
my friend, i loved you each and every
moment, eroded myself in the rains
broken in granules by extreme heat,
the process to collect the bliss of your
eyes, i did not sleep whole the life,
my persona given space to bloom,
the desires has been matured and
stretched the branches with millions
fire flowers -----

---- SHANTANU SANYAL

THE NIGHT

deep night is passed through
the miles longer loneliness,
i know, and my ruined emotions,
millions stars sank in the valley
of silence,the unfolded eyes
gazed out burst of galaxies,
your face transpired before
the life when i breathed the
last, though i raised the hands
to touch your fingers, but did
not reach out, the dreams were
awfully light flown away by the
soft wind of horizon, my voice
wounded back as the pigeon
hurt by hawk in the blues,

my heart waves gone up to the
heights to embrace your feelings
they fell down in the way
the kites tremble down the earth
after cutting the threads, my love
pursued consistently among the
monsoon rains, valleys of fire
never allowed you to down pour,

the unsatisfied soul moves over
the blossom of paradise, i could
not see your presence in the spring,
while invisible touch was every
where but you hidden the identity,
my love does not accept the defeat
i would get you indeed one day -
may be near  the lips or the chest,

-- SHANTANU SANYAL

PROXY

You didn't share the past incidents
in the reflection of your emotion,
I collected all the pieces of dreams
some dry flowers, lifted vigilantly
all the droplets of condensed tear,
the wounded smile explained
the truth of your life, trust me
friend, I would be loved you just
like the moth, no need to tell me
how much you concerned to me
let light on the candles, touch the
red roses, accept the life in new
way, release the twilight with big
 smile, moon light has stretched the
arms, the blue mountain opened
the trails, snow is melted away
 slowly from the flowering valleys,
let me love you again, as some
one loved you before, life is beautiful
include me in somewhere, as proxy
I have no ego to accept that, but fill
the dreams in your eyes, colours in the
heart, love me again in a way that
past would be removed, spring wants
to occupy the blank space
to bloom new hopes in the life ----
--SHANTANU SANYAL

INCOMPLETE POETRIES

whispering wind of tender dawn-

softly sprinkled the scented memory,

in the immediacy someone touched

the heart reluctantly, i found some

innocent moments as a kid hiding the

face in to folds of curtain to say

sorry, immature love had the short

story, in the velvety winter evening,

i remember still the first kiss, near the

stairs of roof, in the slight darkness,

an unknown shivering didn t allow

us to sleep on that night, a sweet fear

or a beautiful feeling created a big

difference in the morning, we lived

in each others neighborhood, when

met again, a hindrance or shyness was

visible between the waves of eyes,

a mute graceful agreement gradually

grown to writing the letters in obscure

style, what to write, we wasted hours,

in last only one sentence - i love you

forever, actually in teen aged, we had

no lexicon for expressing the emotion,

later season converted the sides rapidly

the river s shrinkage was fast as in summer,

the depth of valley became shallow before

to write the mature love letter, she

had been relocated to other town, i had

only now some incomplete poetries ---

--- SHANTANU SANYAL

THE BEAUTY OF SPRING

the all embracing the beauty of spring
diverted my heart on you, the carnival
of blossoms emerged in your persona,
colored dews painted in a manner, that
the exquisite of seventh heaven strewn
with open handed, once looking you, i
have no sense of this planet, wings of
unexplained bliss twisted my whole life,

the assent of adoration from your smile
gone through my nerves in a sweet way,
muscles of body feel revival of passion,
as aggressive emotion were tamed by
the love, you have caged  the mind,soul
every thing my dear in a beautiful, unique
astonishing art, here nature influenced
by you, it borrowed the secretes of love,

the flowering valley stretched the arms
to embrace me, i refused, because my
love is devoted to you, no more in my
possession, it s gone in the first sight to
you, i couldn t love again to someone!

--- shantanu sanyal